emotionally broke, that's what I am.
I can't count the number of times this past 7 days that I've wished I had deeper reserves, higher boundaries, wider walls. I'm just not big enough to contain all the things that I need to, to do all the things expected of me, be all that I feel that I need to. A surrogate-mother, sister, girlfriend, I'm compelled to do all these things and be more (not always well) without really knowing what to do for and with myself.
Australia continually challenges me to enter the forge in life, to see if I'll come out tempered and steely, or to be discarded; the tuesday morning garbage trucks waiting to pick up the slag and leave space for the new. I will be strong.
I have to be.
I can't count the number of times this past 7 days that I've wished I had deeper reserves, higher boundaries, wider walls. I'm just not big enough to contain all the things that I need to, to do all the things expected of me, be all that I feel that I need to. A surrogate-mother, sister, girlfriend, I'm compelled to do all these things and be more (not always well) without really knowing what to do for and with myself.
Australia continually challenges me to enter the forge in life, to see if I'll come out tempered and steely, or to be discarded; the tuesday morning garbage trucks waiting to pick up the slag and leave space for the new. I will be strong.
I have to be.
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hey you it's Tom from Kyoto... you remmeber me? sorry it's taken so long to get to you!!! i dont use this blog that much more cause i haven't been going anywhere or anything, but im all laid up this weekend cause i got injured at work and had surgery yesterday, so im getting a LOT of shit done this weekend!! hope i can talk to you soon!! im tjh4904 on AIM, if you use another messanger let me know cause ill download just for you!
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