purple hamster

but it's not the home that i left behind.

singapore's different, but the same. marina's completely different (to my private relief) and i finally saw the (in)famouse dxo. can't wait to see zouk, everyone's been talking about it taht i can't wait to go and see. i've also been eating. heaps. it's also humider then i remembered, and newton is just... different. but the best part is that, the friends are the same. and God bless you for that.

• to you and you who brought me out the first day, and gave me the courage to face everyone else, i thank you. thanks for bringing me to pig out, and for a very very special christmas. i still think that coming back to my house was the best idea. =)
• to the party crew =) thanks for giving me my space and still fussing over me, keeping me well plied with drinks, but leaving me to the relative solitude of the sumptous bedroom. and thanks for the best gift, confidence.
• to the sentosa bunch. thanks for the fun, and the company, and for respecting that i couldn't get wet. and to you, who showed me faith and trust. you touched me with the simple gift, more than any jewels or gold would have.
  
• to you who walked me round orchard, shopping for the perfect dress. we didn't find it, but i found the perfect acceptance, that has eluded me in so many others. thanks for listening, and letting me vent, and for really understanding, and offering a been-there-and-gone-through-it side of things. altho not quite the same, knowing that it is survivable is fabulous, and the reminder that after a fall to the bottom, you can only go up, really really helped. thank bboj for me too!
• to the brissites! thanks for the chocolate, food, and fun. you reminded me of all that i have waiting for me when i got back to bris.
  
• and to you for your message. you gave me the best christmas present. you've silently been a part of me for so long as well, that suddenly realising that my loss causes more loss is a terrible thing to realise. you've reminded me that i am still the same girl.

and to all those people who have told me that i am still me and i haven't changed. for some reason, that i don't change is so very very important, because my personality is me, it is not something that is imfluenced by the outside, rather is is changed by what i experience. which honestly is not that much different from when i left up until the 2 week of december.

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